den-Nistelrooy

WARNING!!

2006-08-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

screw you.. for those who had annoyed me by your fucking ignorant remarks today, u fucking watch out. MY BALLS ARE BURING!! fucking assholes. you just wait and see. its totally insulting and it fucking pissed me off! i shan't mention what the incident's all about but i'm clearly upset about it.. i got sticks when i deserved none.

random.

2006-08-10T01:01:00.002+08:00

MUG MUG MUG MUG!!! i've been mugging like there's no tomorrow these days. time's running out man.. nowadays, kap seemed to have become my frequent hangout place.

a friend of mine has got this superstition- he thinks that his blue undies gives him luck. haha. he wears it to the exam. there was once he wash it everyday so that he can have luck throughout the whole mid year period. he wore a black one for one of the paper and he came out cursing cuz he thought it was his undies that caused him to screw up. hahaha. i think his superstition is totally justified.

i think blue's the in colour now. seriously. not exactly at the fashion sense la. more on the winning sense. in sports, team in blues are the in team now: chelesa wore blue and they won the premier league for two years in the running; barcelona has blue in their red and blue stripe jersey and they are champs of spain and europe; after the verdict issued from the italian tribunal, the scandalous italian leauge title shifted to inter, another team in blue. EURO2004 saw greece, another team in blue, beating all odds to reach the final and beat host portugal. and FINALLY, italy won the world cup. and i need not state the colour they were wearing right?

ok enough of football, check out F1, last season champs was renault's fernando alonso, he too, wore blue. and he's on the top of the racer chart now with 100points, 10 points more than michael schumacher. then in tennis, rafael nadal wore blue when he beat roger federer in the french open finals.

so. if the superstition is correct, then i guess, france would have won the world cup should they be the team to wear their home kit in the finals (can anyone remember what colour shirt zidane was in when banged his head against that materrazi's chest?). ;);)

with all the success the teams in blues are getting, the blues might not feel so blue afterall.

2006-07-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

ruud van nistelrooy (mentor of yours truly, den nistelrooy) left man utd and signed for real madrid. its such a shame that he left. my favourite player left my favourite club. now i dont have any player i idolize in man utd. last time was becks and RVN. now both of them left. its such a shame.

okay. speaking about football on a lighter note and in a more understandable terms, jeco told me that during mid-year history paper, there're 2 jokers from his class that went to compete on writing names of football players that starts with the letter "J".. like. what the hell?!?!?!?!?!?!?! i was laughing my ass off. he said they attempted the questions but every question they just write a few lines like "i agree to a certain extent. and bla bla bla" after that, they start writing names of footballers. FUCKING RETARDED. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

2006-07-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

so nonchalant.. so indifferent.. what do u take me as? who exactly am i to you?

2006-07-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

its about striking the perfect balance. its about mantaining the distance. while some people might like those kinda easy come easy go relationship, some people prefer to have gluey partner, someone who's always sticking on to you. i, incidently, prefer a hybrid. all my exes were the gluey type of girls, so i thought it'd be nice to go on a new experience. but honestly speaking, to be either extremely sticky or indifferent is really a sickening thing sometimes. u have to always try to maintain a private space with a sticky person, but when u are with an indifferent person, u'll have lots of work to do as well- to close in on the gap. after a while u'll feel that it's become a rather one sided thing.

i've been sick like nobody's business this few days. have never really been totally down for quite sometime.

i'm still contemplating if i should go to jaslyn's bbq. cherry and zhili's not going, so that means it's left with me, yuntian and yiting. i think if i go, i'll end up having a little chit-chat talk cock session with yiting.. yuntian definitely will stay behind to help jaslyn "clear things" after the party ends.. and if u stay on after that, u wont know what u'll get to see.. ;) hahaha. the fact that i'm sick is another point of consideration. we shall see.. we shall see.

once u hit sec4, i think u'll get hit by some stay home syndrome. it didnt happen to the previous batches( i used to see upper secs seniors taunting town after sch last time). but i think my batch got hit. it seems like its very difficult to ask your friends out these days. i havent been hanging out with my friends these days. it's kinda hard to get OUR asses out of the house these days. everyone seemed so... lazy to leave house. people were still quite gung-ho last year. i remembered me and zhili sneaked into cherry's place in the middle of the night last year. i had nothing to do thatt night and they called me out to talk cock at their estate. haha. last time all of us were super spontaneous. now, its like so hard to get people out. bleah.

anyway, its almost august already. i think its time for me to think about where i wanna go. they say once u get into august, it'll be a fast ride. so i have to start planning ahead now. =/

2006-07-23T14:06:00.000+08:00

haha. where do i start first.. oh. yes. yuntian. i dont know why she always like give me a playboy flinger image. whats wrong with being selective. and what's more is you're within that bunch of people. i mean, i dont intend to mix with all the high profile girls around, but they co-incidently are within my contact.. haha. what can i do? i do still mix with those "ordinary" girls.. and i dont really know alot of sec3s. maybe just ms ke and susan. and oh. the saying hi thing. i dont say hi because i'm shy to those whom i dont know well. what's wrong with that? hahaha. okay.

i sprained my ankle. i just came back from accupuncture. the sinseh said that i need to rest from football for at least 2 weeks, which means that i will miss the NUS match. its alright, i dont mind missing out on a match with little challange. haha. when i come back, i'll arrange a game with the barker guys. i miss playing with jeco, russel, zhenwen and co. hahaha.

i think my injury got worse. i went out last night with my pri sch friends last night. we went town and walked from esplanade all the way to clarke quay.. damn, it was such a torture. we went to eat fondue. 5 of us. its been so long since we had a gathering. i mean i go out with chin soon once in every few months, have guitar lessons with khoon fai every week, bump into jesselyn in J.E and town sometimes and talk to her once in a while, but we've never really went out AS A GROUP together. thank god julius came back, or we wont ever have such gathering..

dennis: "yongs or ravinder prettier?"
kaimun: " hmmm.. its just as good as asking if yuntian or eve prettier. haha"
hahaha. i think his answer is damn funny.

2006-06-25T02:53:00.000+08:00

mark down the 25th of every month.. there's a new agenda coming in.. =D

SENTOSA...

2006-05-27T19:09:00.000+08:00

time to update:

sentosa was great. went to sentosa after PTC on friday with kaimun,wangqin, jianhe,huishan,vanessa and dantong.. missed the sentosa sun and beach. they rocked big time. we didnt do much except for chilling in the beach. wang qin and jian he thinks that they are white, so they wanna tan.. haha.

then in the toilet jianhe suddenly mentioned that xiaxue love guys with the so-called "penis vein". then he ask if anyone of us has it.. hahaha. then when i stripped off my top, he said "OMG, dennis, u have penis vein.." hahahahaha. so apparently, to my understanding of my own body, the alleged vein is a vein that extends out from your groin up to the tummy area.. i dont know why its called penis vein also..

ok. enough of veins and arteries. haha. so we tanned at the beach and had dinner at sakae.. it was the most memorable and craziet buffet in my life. in an hour, 7 of us ordered 80 odd plates of sushi. we were so damn full after that and to avoid surcharges for unfinished food, we even resorted to hiding excess food in our containers and our empty snack packets. it was DUMB...

the shop owner told us that 4guys held a record of eating 250 plates of sushis. haha. then he said as long as we can eat 200plates and above, everything'll be on the house. hahaha. WHOAS...

actually we planned to stay at vanessa's place for movie marathon. but everyone backed out last minute.. so, no texas chainsaw masacre.. we ended up just talking at her place and we left at around 10.30. i left my wallet and ipod at her place that night. haha.

(kaimun getting sneaky.. hahaha. look at his face...)

2006-05-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

missed winston's bbq party. heard they played soccer. awww. shit. i missed soccer. it's been so long since i last played soccer.. i think i've been entertaining my female friends and sisters too much till i sometimes become inactive in being a brother with my brothers.

yesterday was alright la.. i dont get it but it seems like everytime i go out with GODIVA i end up going home at at least 11.30. it's been worse this couple of times.. i came back at almost 1 last night.

da Vinci Code:
quite bad.. in the sense very bad. but i m glad its bad. it'll get bad reviews. people say the message presented in the movie is scary. but i think reading the novel's much worse. furthermore, the book is much more detailed.

i promise you people that u all would rather spend your money watching MI:3. i would..

LORD, I PRAY THAT MAY THERE BE STRONG FAITH AMONG ALL YOUR FOLLOWERS AND YOUR CHILDREN IN THIS PERIOD OF CONFUSION WHERE THERE MAY BE CONFUSION OF WHAT'S THE TRUTH AND WHAT'S CONSPIRED. PLEASE LEAD THEM TO THE PATH OF RIGHTIOUSNESS AND TRUTH. AMEN.

njo and dantong asked me out for a sing song session at chinatown. i rejected them. kinda voiceless anyway.. i m going to boyi there to play soccer later. i m really excited. its been so long since i played. =D weehee..

cherry: hahah. u just buy a street soccer shoes la.. haha. boots are ex, and not versatile.. i got one for 200bucks and i barely used them. i think i played less than 20 times with them. dont waste money, must as well u save up, next time buy ticket look me up in aussie. AHAHAHAHA..

yuntian: how's mr chua and nj yesterday? ;) haha. like what i always say, why waste your youth away when u're at your prime?

2006-05-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

the girls (vanessa and huishan) made my day today. vanessa scammed me into rushing down thinking that huishan was upset and was crying.. then i went down only to see her smiling like what and holding a box of apple struddle as a make up for my birthday..

vanessa: "eh, u all finish lesson already not?"
dennis: "huh? nah. why? i thought u all are in the toilet now?"
van: "no.. huishan crying now. she's very upset abt the alloy stuff. come down a.s.a.p later.."
me: "huh?! okay okay.. be there in a while"

hahaha. thanks girls. ;) so nice of them. then we had ate outside AVA.. the apple struddle lost some of its crunch. but.. nvm. its still nice. =D haha..

we're gonna have a sentosa outing next fri after ptc. the response from the boys is SLIGHTLY better. last year only me and kaimun turned up. this year i think jianhe and wangqin are also going. =D
cherry: sorry buddy, they asked me yesterday and i agreed. cant jam on friday. we'll fix another day alright?

exam results: i wasnt really upset about it nor was i paticularly satisfied. i'm happy that i improved in the sense that my grades are more consistent now.. and that i know i m gonna do a better job during prelims. =D alot of misses-A-by-a-bit kinda thing.. i promise i m gonna jump at least 1 grades for my double sci(phy and chem) and 2grades for my double maths. I CAN DO IT!!!!!!

the chalet: damn.. it has to be pushed back.. because of extra classes for the 1st 2 weeks. =/ i'll arrange again after i get the schedule. =)

2006-05-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

i think exams really drove us nuts:

dennis: "there's this point system when u are chasing a girl. the more u are able to impress the girl, the more points u get. then quality time gives u most points..
kaimun: "aiya.. that one next time then talk la."
dennis: "ya.. but that one gives u MOST points on any day. that's why i dont give a damn about sms and stuff.."
kaimun: "i get what u mean.. u are going for purpose points and not provenance points right? haha. but i dont care. i think i'm just gonna state a stand and get 1mark for L1."

what's worse was in the midst of poseidon, we were discussing physics theory. the formula for pressure, moments and so on.. exam stress. cannot blame. kaimun even flipped newspaper in my dad's office subconsciously cuz he thought he needed to read. haha..

* voices was CRAP!!! dont watch it people.. 11 of us watched in cine yesterday and i was scared for nothing..

symphony of voices 2006
i didnt regret getting "conned" and going into this concert cuz it was real good.. fantastic. kudos to the whole VJ choir man. worth a standing ovation (i didnt stand cuz no one stood.. hahahaha. but i clapped real hard.)
check it out:
1) i was in quiksilver pants and polo with reef sandals during the concert. i was so out of place can? esplanade for goodness sake..
2) VJ choir had their very own CHOIR ANTHEM.. like "whoa!!!" can? does that mean the membes have choir parade every morning? HAHA.

but ya. 20bucks well spent(partly cuz of the entertaiment value and mostly for the quality time ;) wahahaha). yuntian's cursing me for not asking her to go.. sorry baby, i didnt even know i m going until 1 hour before the concert itself starts. haha.

the most blissful haircut session EVER!
i went for a haircut at REDS suntec today. saw this female hairdstylist. she was cutting my hair. i dont know how come but i just love the feeling she gave me.. she's not the usual female stylist who potrays an ah lian or act cute image.. i just dont know what i see in her that make me think that she's attractive. just loved her style, loved her image.

haha. me and kaimun were trying to be an asshole today and watch a free esplanade concert.. but we didnt dare to ask for the timeslot. HAHAHAHA..

2006-05-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

11th may

oh. its the end of a whole week of serious exams. amath paper1 was generally managable.. cherry was complaining that she screwed up the paper when we were on the way to chinatown for our(yuntian, njo, cherry, zhili and me) mini private concert. =D MOST of the songs we sang were dedicated to yuntian. hahaha. she was staring at the screen most of the time, trying to read and understand the lyrics.. who'd bet on her to know the songs we sang, let alone the lyrics? we were rocking the room. THIS is what i call KTV session. we were mad la. 5 of us. robbie william is sucha great entertainer and performer that he was able to captivate us even through his video clip. we picked rock dj. i saw the "rock dj" video a couple of times last time. the girls were mesmerized of his striptease act he did.. but it was cool.. =D

dennis: "eh, there's six pence none the richer(in the database)"
yuntian: "oh cool! kiss me. kiss me."
dennis: "huh? *turned back with bewildered look* u call me kiss you ah?"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

at the end of the 4 hours of hardcore singing and shouting, i had to rush home to prepare for chocolate's concert. i met wangqin, dantong and peiyu in west mall. and bumped into cherry and njo.. hahaha. they practically dragged me into the florist and got me to buy a sunflower.. haha. it was awkward. i had to carry it around. ok. i carried it around westmall, citilink and singapore conferece hall.. CITILINK la.. come on. in a sea of shops, u see a guy holding a stalk of sunflower.. how weird is that? its not handing her the flower that was the most sia suay thing, it was carrying the flower that was tough.. haha

the concert was cool.. we were almost late. just nice. seated the moment the emcee started talking. the conductor was great. the choir was superb.. everything was good. =D gave her the flower at the end of the concert. had to have my guts boosted alot of times before i handed her the flower.. participated in a game of "hide and seek" in the concert hall. haha. (if u know, u know. if u dont, forget about asking)

dantong, peiyu and wangqin left cuz i waited for her. we parted in the mrt platform. we went to westmall to eat.. cuz the shops were closed, so we went to kopitiam to buy food and brought em in to westmall to sit on the benches outside the shops to eat. she bought red bean and green bean ice and a carton of soya milk. i bought a bottle of limeade. we shared a box of ba chor mee.. the uncle scam. ba chor mee only got mushroom and meat. pig liver and meat ball dont have.. we wanted to go to the blocks to eat. but we scared the residents complain. so we just went ahead and went west mall.

after supper, we went home and thats the end of a very very very long but enjoyable day. =D reached home at 12.30. cabbed home. dropped her at her house..

2006-05-12T11:02:00.001+08:00

10.05.06
my birthday!! haha. even though it had to be during the midyear, but its alright. cuz i've got people around me who still remembers my birthday. =) agnes and david came back at 12 and gave me a present. guess what? its a LEVI'S ENGINEERED JEANS! haha. i've been wanting to get a jeans for myself and they bought it for me. =) cool..

then in school, cherry, yuntian and njo went to sort of put up a mini celebration for me. straight after history paper yuntian called me. she asked me where i was and i when i said i was outside of my class, she replied sth that i couldnt make out. haha. then when i went down to canteen, they asked me to close my eyes and walked me like a blind man to the seat. they sang a birthday song to me and when i open my eyes, in front of me was an egg, a drumstick and a pandan cake. plus a bottle of berry juice.. to remind me of chocolate. (that bottle is still in my fridge ok?) HAHAHAHA. they are so cute. haha. fancy them thinking of this idea.. cherry even said "the egg is the most ex one la. 40cents leh" HAHAHAHAHA..

i met peilin at westmall and she passed me a card she made. she's a nice senior.. fancy her remembering my birthday and still bothered to make me a card.. =D

then feasted in some french restaurant.. but i felt so sick after the desert even though it tasted so good. i dont know. i was sweating like mad in the car. haha. when i reached home, i was so dead that i didnt even have the energy to cut my cake. haha

2006-05-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

boyi: "i think humans are very ironic. contradicting.."
me: "why?"
boyi: "they knew they aren't gonna last but they still wanna get together.."
me: "its for the experience la.."
boyi: "ya. but its like, 'since you know u are gonna shit, why eat?' "

hahaha.. boyi came just now. lightened up my mood quite alot today.. we mugged downstairs with a bunch of inconsiderate pigtails having their bbq.. he just left moments ago. OH.. we did an MTV styled punk'd on rutian.. boyi's the actor.. i was ashton kutcher.. haha.. so cool.

ya. hanged out alot this few days. the vision of me leaving next year really made me treassure and try to hold on the things i have now. my friends, my families, my living environment, everything. gonna miss everyone.. or perhaps most in my community.

whatever. got lots to pen down now. i'm so disorganised with my thoughts now.

oh. i think i m gonna hold a chalet! i roughly have an idea who to ask to go. cherry got the strangest idea ever. she said "book the chalet before MOS can? then we can go at night." hahaha. after that she backed out.

i think i've got sucha cool bunch of friends around me.. the all so smart and crazy kaimun. the outspoken boyi. cherry, who got a telepathic understanding with me. yuntian, who's as charismatic and nice as ever..
not forgetting the she whom we constantly named as chocolate/dark chocolate/white chocolate. of course there are many more. but i think i m really blessed to have all this few people around. i feel so.. satisfied with my life.. =)

yuntian: "last time i was afraid of you. i think you were hostile"
dennis: "when was that? why? hahaha.."

yuntian: "sec1 sec2 that time.. hmmm. because you are cross country champion.. and you are so vulgar. everytime see you, you seem to be saying the F word or wahlao or whatever.."

dennis: "hahahahaha.. oops.."

jian he: "dennis, wo jue de ni bian le.."
dennis: " ?? zuo mo leh? then shi hao hai shi huai?"
jian he: "hmmm. yi qian ni ti soccer de shi hou, wo gen xiao yang yi zhi bei ni ma. then ti soccer de shi hou ni yi zhi ma fcuk. xian zai hen shao ting dao ni ma liao.."

hahahahaha. gosh.. those 2 conversation just showed how notorious and vulgar i was. oops. BUT NOW, i have changed. i think it was hilarious.
cherry and yuntian: babies, i fulfilled my new year revolution of using less swear words.... HAHAHAHAHA..

2006-05-01T14:44:00.000+08:00

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.
You have great vision and can be very insightful.In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

2006-04-29T02:04:00.000+08:00

long day today.. had a short lesson day and a long and boring speech day. saw alot of seniors coming back today. bev, peilin, dingyang, yuhan, sebas, kiat how and etc etc. but only managed to talk to bev, peilin and dingyang.. blim was lashing out totally at everyone. she held us back for 15mins for attendance and lecturing etc.. and thanks to THAT 15 minutes, there goes my hostel at cineleisure. was supposed to catch it at 7.50. but when i reached je to meet bev, it was already 7.40. so forget it. we went to westmall to watch daisy.. guess we'll hafta watch it some other days.. no decisions have been made yet.

westmall
we reached west mall at approximately 8.10. saw freaking lotsa nan hua peeps. saw njo, wenhui and claud going up while we were going down. haha. we went to kill time at the hdb rooftop (the show was at 9.15. we're done with tix at 8.20) then when we came down to go back for the show, we saw elaine and shawn in the playground. i looked at elaine, and she looked at us. bev know who she was, so she waved. she was stunned for a few seconds. then after a while, then she realized the guy was me. haha.

daisy
the movie was good.. i like the way it was directed.. it was supposed to be a sad movie. but when the sad, crying, emotional scene came, when every other people were getting all serious, emotional and teary, she laughed.. like, the saddest scene of all, she laughed. why? cuz she said: "the way the guy cry was funny. he keep making weird noises. *imitate" HAHAHA. whatever man~ and later after the movie, cherrylene, being an ass and having nothing to do after being free for the whole day cuz she was sick (take care baby.. get well soon), sent me a msg which say "HOPE U ENJOYED YOUR RENDEZVOUSSSSSSSSSS :)" (i counted the exact number of S-es. there were 10.) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

ya. overall, it has been a good long day. productivity rate was lower than destress rate. but afterall, i had been productive for the past few days. so i guess i deserve this temporary break. =D

MY SURVEY
recently, i asked people some questions which depicts them being stuck in an awkard, catchy, and problematic situation eg. about whether they're gonna choose to abort if they/their girfriend (applies to guys and girls) gets pregnant etc. got alot of different respose. i think the response shows alot about one..

for the pregnancy question, some choose to keep the baby out of motherly love or/and religious reasons, some choose to abort it for the benefit of their and their partner's future, while some others did not answer because they simply have not thought about it and dare not think about it, therefore they dont have a definate answer on how to deal with it..

tough it may seem to answer, but its interesting for me to know how a person deals with such catchy and problematic situation. helps me to understand how different people think. and its interesting, as well, to think about how u were gonna respond, should u be caught in such situation. =D

rantings

2006-04-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

there're so many things i have to update.. i think i'll do it tonight. dont feel like mugging anymore

sports day 21.04.06 ( LAST RACE)
without any doubt, ANY DOUBT GUYS, we nicked the 4X100m relay. jianhe, fangyong, sihao did great. looking at my trophies on the table, i feel quite sad. cuz its the last race and its my last medal. AND MY LAST YEAR too.. quite sad. 4years passed in such a blink.. ya. many people cried during sportsday, but none from my class la.. HAHA. my class looks as though they cant be bothered that day.. they hardly moved. i loved sports atmosphere. and i'll miss the atmosphere, the adrenaline rush, the noise and everything. okay la. shant make it so sad. afterall, its my 1st entry since god-knows-when.

today
1) i got caught in the rain yesterday and i didnt go to school. this time valid reason ok? hahah. ya.. i had a headache last night. then when i woke up for champ's league, my whole body was aching. mugged quite a bit today. 2chapters of ss and did some recaps for the big and name-ly(full of names) bio chapters in dad's office..

2) i dreamt that i got back my bio prac results... i got only a few pitiful marks?? i saw crosses all over the place.. haha. i cross my finger, hard, that it'll not be what i see next time.

3)and oh idol, yes! katherine mcphee is the top 2 for yesterday night's show! loved it.. rock on kat-woman! i m on a phee-ver! HAHAHAHA. i downloaded the audio file of "i have nothing"..

18th May 2006
check it out man.. exam ends at the 17th. the champion's league final's on the 18th and da vinci is on on the same day. so are u thinking what the pon-ster is thinking? YEAH BABY.. me and kaimun decided to give ourselves a well
deserved break as soon as the exam ends. woohoo.. i cant wait man.

quote of the day: whitney houston- the greatest love of all
If I fail, if I succeed, at least I live as I believe. No matter what they take from me, they can't take away my dignity. Because the greatest love of all... Is happening to me. The greatest love of all... Is easy to achive. Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all.

You're an individual. You're You. What makes You that You is Your smile, Your voice; the way You walk, the way You take everything calmly in Your stride; Your interests, Your love; Your personality and Your features.No one can take these things away from You. All these combined as one forms a unique and beautiful individual, You. There is no one else in this entire universe that is exactly like You. No matter how much they may look like You, talk like You and have in common with You, the bottom line is that they'll never be You. You can't be replaced.Another thing is, You can't be someone else. The same things apply, You can look like them and have everything in common with them, but the one thing that will never be is that You will never be them.We all have a special something that we all treasure deep inside and no one can ever take that away from You, just like we can't take it away from others. No one is exactly the same; we're all different in Mind, Body and Soul.We're all meant to be. Learn to love Yourself. To do this You have to truly look inside Yourself. Find the center of the whole You and work on it. Build on it. Work on it's potential. Once this is done, then You can look at Yourself in the mirror and honestly say "I can see myself ". This is because when You have worked upon Your inside, what You see of Yourself on the outside becomes what You are on the inside. You'll be able to see the whole You reflected back 100%.This is what true beauty is: knowing who You are and accepting it. Beauty, I believe, comes from within and this is how it shines through.Never judge yourself based on the criteria of others. Don't compare yourself with others because everyone has his or her own problems and insecurities, most of which you will probably never know about or be able to understand. But most of all, we should never deceive ourselves to believe that we have the right to condemn or denounce other people simply because they don't correspond to our own ideals.

I will praise You (God), for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. Psalm 139:14 "

2006-04-16T14:30:00.000+08:00

long time no blog.. kinda busy. especially this week. went to church almost everyday.. i didnt have time to study. but afterall, the time's well spent. =D sang with magnificat in the sanctuary yesterday. we'd been practicing for it for very long. mario(the best musician in church) fell sick yesterday and almost cant make it. wonder how will our choir sound if he wasnt there with his keyboard. thank god he came =) went to paragon for dinner yesterday. then agnes say cineleisure's midnight has a promotion that says that if u come in pajamas to watch midnight, u can get to buy-1-get-1 free, for 2 movies some more. haha. i m gonna try that after mid year man.. then we decided to go to K. wanted to try the new club in bukit batok. but dad dont allow.. haha. so, we went home and had our own karaoke session in my room. i played the guitar and we sang. hahaha.. she asked me to learn the indo song by samsons.. sounded quite good. i love the lyrics.. =D we were going crazy last night in my room. then i played the busker version of the guang liang's yue ding.. sounded quite funny. haha. i feel like poning to mug tomorrow. i m going out now. bringing zhili to church.. =D ciao.. blog tonight perhaps?

sorry guys..

2006-04-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys. now THIS entry wont be about kaimun, soccer, vanessa or huishan..

haha.. had a dream last night. dreamt that rouge candy was having a concert in the legendary moulin rouge.. yuntian was rocking the mike, cherry was banging the keyboard, zhili was whacking the drum and i was jamming the guitar.. haha. then we performed "Let me entertain you" by robbie williams.. then there was a guest appearance by Kenny G with his saxophone. gosh it was such a crowd. so cool la.. haha.. so freaking cool.. THEN. swap scene. we were back in Nan Hua hall performing on teachers day. for the 1st time.. i forgot what song yuntian sang.. was it "only hope" or "to make you feel my love", i cant remember what.. yea. kinda outrageous though...

the dream made me wanna jam... cherry say her house there got studio. but its for later, when we're good enough. HAHA. we need practice. as for now, i think yuntian's zen micro recorder can do the job perfectly. hahaha.

we're the champion, my friends.. cuz we keep on fighting till the end~

2006-04-01T22:01:00.001+08:00

Sportscentre Headline News

NHHS emerged as a run away winners after a 4-2 win away from home against neighbours NUSH in mouthwatering clementi ave1 derby in the champions league.. having bagged 4 away goals, the CHEENA MEN(nhhs) should be having no problems about changing their line-up in the 2nd leg clash at home. the atmosphere were tense in the stadium. tackles were flying in constantly. there were several occasion when the away fans were having disputes with the 4th official(nush girls) about goals scored. overall, it has been a great match with 4 great goals scored by the CHEENA MEN to grab an undisputed win over the MUGGER(nush). this is martin tyler reporting from the NUSH.. thank you and good night..

hahaha.. i missed dozens of chances in that game.. i think i took 10attempts at least on goal, only to convert 1.. haha. it should have been 2 should my 1st goal be allowed.. damn.. but who cares.. darn it. i ran and ran until my whole body ache now.

woohoo!! chelsea drew 0-0, man u wont 2-1. table cut to 7 pts.. yes! there's a glimmer of hope.. last time in the 95/96 season(if i m not wrong) we won after chasing Newcastle which has 12 or 15 point difference.. cool.

2006-03-30T15:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday morning my parents went back to indonesia and kaimun stayed over night to watch champions league(we watched inter vs villareal). then before that he wanted to watch the repeat telecast of the arsenal juventus match.. so there we were, watching soccer like no body's business..
1030-1230:arsnal vs juventus
1230-0200:david beckham's coaching dvd
0200-0230:nap
0230-0430:champ's league.
that was the itenirary for last night. haha. quite crazy i guess..

ya. and damn, i think we got food poisoning by alif's teh/prata.. screw it. kaimun's stomach was hurting so bad that he went home instead of going to school. i went to school.. no choice. i ponned yesterday. so i wanted to go to school, sing song, show face, then report sick, go home. hahah. but i decided to stay until assembly before i leave. ya. i reached home at around 1..

"then would u have premarital sex?" huishan ask
"me? i dont know.. i m afraid of going into relationship, so how do u think i can do premarital sex?"
"aiya, move on la.. its over already. find a new girl and thats it." vanessa said..
haha. i dont know what they thinking about la.. kinda admire them.. they have the courage of diving/plunging/whatever into a relationship straight after a break up.. (argh.. i dont know what i m ranting here...)

anyway, they were quite funny. cuz premarital sex was the CD topic, then we were discussing about it. we ask each other alot of dumb questions.. then i said sth like "will u have sex with ur boyfriend if one day he come to u and say 'i think its time to bring our relationship into the next level'." haha. then vanessa say "er xin la.. wo zhi jie zou diao lor.." HAHAHA..

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
I can make it through the rain
And I live once again
And I live one more day
And I can make it through the rain
(Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain

2006-02-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

just came back from town. went town to watch movie with huishan and vanessa. stupid kaimun pang seh. ultimate turn off. but its okay, i dont blame him.. =D yeah. watche pink panter.. all of us just got 20bucks. initial plan was to buy huishan's present in town. but end up, after paying for food and tickets(i paid for huishan's), i m left with 2 bucks. i think they arent much better off either.. hahaha.. yeah. but we gonna make it up on saturday, when we go town for flag day. haha. then at 6, when they meet their respective guys, i went to my parent's office above man u shop.. 1st time i went there. looks QUITE condusive.. small, neat, quiet.. good to study. perhaps a new mugging place next time.. ;) *shrugs.. its seriously a good prospect though.. haha..

today's quite an alright day for me. quite focused in class.. found the serious motivation to study and like what laura khoo say "job satisfaction". i suddenly derived a bit of joy from mugging. hahaha. u can call me a mugger, i dont care..

anyway, got back chem and bio results.. pretty satisfied with the grades. 80 for bio and 77 for chem.. then my combined humans got 78(ss-11/13, history-18/25). the only screwed up subject was my chinese i got 58.5.. but heck la.. its language, nothing u can do to improve in a short time.. so overall quite ok.. the stunner subjects havent come back yet.. i m sure to be screwing on my physics and both of my maths paper.. then there's english. another fucked up subject.. though my english is quite ok, sia say we screwed the paper.. but i wont get to see the results anyway. not gonna go sch tomorrow. playing golf with joe in the morning.. but i 2weeks plus never touch the club already. cuz of my new interest to tennis and common test, i havent been practicing. think i m going down the range later to hit a few balls... dont wanna waste my chance of playing in the green and my time in the sun hitting shit shots that roll on the floor.. so have to practice.. hehe.

OH.. since i m not going school tomorrow, that means vivien's gonna represent the class as the presenter for the malay thingy ALONE! hahahaha! =) xing zai le huo.. think this week is gonna be a relatively short week. tomorrow pon school, friday pon school again. =) haha. i m not going for x-country.. lazy to run. i hate running nowadays although my favourite shirt at home is the x-country jersey. hahaha.. i m going career fair with david and agnes.. i think its a waste of time going with the school. i've already got a clear direction on what i m gonna do in the future. aint gonna waste my time hearing them crap. i'd rather spend the time listening to them crapping, walking around checking out the Us.. hehe.

thats about all i have to post for now on.. update later on if i have more to say or something..

2006-02-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

if ever there's something worth posting in this blog for today, it'll be 2 things- 1st: wang qin went to church today.. 2nd: ktv.. XD

went to 2 services today. my own indo congregation and then chinese congregation.. usually i would have went home straight after service, but because wang qin coming, i went for chinese congregation. despite that fact, surprisingly chinese congregation service didnt make me feel drowsy. or rather, i have no reason to be drowsy cuz its too active.. hope wang qin converts.. he seem keen. he's coming next week for the earlier session.. =P thats really cool!! =D the whole thing ended at 12plus. peiyu, dantong and me 176-ed to west mall. then dantong and me took train to chinatown.. we meeting njo there for K. then when we reach, njo was still having meeting, so we went to eat at Mac. we saw xiaowei there.
i was like: "was that xiaowei?"
then dantong say: "yeas.. should i go say hi?"
"u know her not? if u know her just say hi lor.."
obviously she did la.. then after that she regret.. she say "shit! what if she misunderstand! tmr i dont wanna go school already la.. wahlao..." hahahahhaha.. she was like so tensed lor.. so funny. then she blamed it njo for coming in late.. damn stupid la..

anyway, njo finally came and we K-ed. sang 5 hrs..sang ALOT ALOT of songs. they spam playlist with songs that they cant even manage to finish singing. like, after 1hr plus the playlist got 11pages.. they crazy ass. they did most of the singings.. haha. i was bored then i played with dantong's zen micro. found some recording that she did on herself! haha! so i decided to use it to record the singings. then the bestest part of the K was when they sang ru guo de shi and we all sang shan hu hai (njo and dantong took turns to sing but ultimately njo sang most).. rock lor.. harmony sia! =D then we did alot of stupid things. i di siao-ed dantong when she was singing bei ai de nu ren. i took the zen and sang into it. wonder if it did cover her voice or not. HAHA! okay. shant talk too much about the di siao-ings and the silly things we did in chinatown cuz there's too much that we did. hahaha. it was great fun man. fantastic day hanging out with them. =D when i reach home i was dead beat. i just lay on the couch and fall asleep. then i slept for an hour before my mum woke me up for dinner.

shan't talk too much anymore.. i m watching man u vs wigan. carling cup finals. rooney scored!!! 1st goal this year la. its been so long.. hahaha... its half time and i m blogging.. i havent done my homework yet. great. =D and they returning results tomorrow. damn! hope i dont screw up on this.. goodnight.. blog again tomorrow

time, events, life, changes, coincidences and destinies.

2006-02-25T02:21:00.000+08:00

its been a long time and a short time for me living this few years... when u are in the present, the rate time passes by is like forever. but once you are out of that period, that forever is just a matter of thought. but whatever it is, how long or short it is, between the past years and the present days, many things happened.. ranging from getting a life back and enjoying life, to settling down and stabilising my life. it's really been some time... and really due to this very fact that time passes by so quickly when u think that it's taking forever, no one is really definate. short time= long time=many events=many changes. what u have now, wont be guaranteed to be always with you in the future, or even tomorrow. no one ever know what will ever happen tomorrow. assets such as family, friends, loved ones might become a liability and regret one day. on the contrary, the thing you used to regard burdens and liabilities might just become your most important assets.. as cliche as i may sound, its the truth.. anyone who really bothered to look back to changes in their life will know that time is neither short or long, and u wont be sure about whats gonna happen to u and ur surrounding..

suddenly this makes me think about final destination. u get all the accidents and death by coincidence.. its just the same case. time and the fact that "the only constant is change", builds up events by changing the state of the situation, and events come together to become co-incidence which will affect our life at a point of time, but by the time u wouldnt have known and remembered that it's through this action you did, that lead into this change..
a person grow in a similar way. a person grows through changes. changes, which overtime added with some complication, will give him a certain mindset about a particular event or case.. but all changes and all events lead to a place- your own destiny. you hold your own destiny, but simple things determines the course in you finding your own path to destiny.

destiny is not fated.. destiny of us may be fated and prearranged by GOD, the almighty, but to us who are the prearranged and fated by Him, destiny aint about being lucky and fated. its all in ''OUR OWN HANDS". we have to work towards it and our actions determines it... we're not GOD, we're just ordinary human beings. and fate is a word some uses to rely on when all the things in their life gets spinning out of control.. fate may mean pre-arranged literrally, but it only can be used by Him who did all the plannings or be used by us when a change has occured to change an event from what it is yesterday to what it is now, and that u finally become enlightened about what the incident of the past ultimately ended as in the present..

what u sow, is what u reap. what u do is what u get. what goes around comes around. say that its karma, but simple little actions really affects, not to even mention big ones..

i really dont know why am i doing this. but if u who happens to read this dont understand what i m talking about, i m sorry. just take it that i m crazy. but if u happen to get what i mean, i hope this will be something little that will affect u positively at some point in time in the future..

240206

2006-02-25T01:37:00.000+08:00

finally, i blogged. its been a while since i blogged. been really busy during the whole common test week. its 100% mugging. common test doesnt feel common test anymore, it feels like end of year. everyone's so competitive. but whatever, i m not gonna be stressed up and go haywire just because of the pressure. i m working on a different mentality... haha.

suddenly feel like its PSLE year. what i do everyday is mug and mug, marks of class tests and common tests and any other tests doesnt matter to me anymore, just serve as a guideline and reflection of myself.. cuz its the final papers of the year that matter.. yeah, but it's been a long week.

released school at 12. by right, we(me, haoli, boyi, wangqin, dantong and peiyu) planned to watch fun with dick and jane in west mall at night.. but, end up, the girls, boyi and wangqin, pang seh.. also partially due to the fact that its not showing anymore. heck la. anyway, kaimun came to my place after school. planned to play tennis in the evening. then we went down at 3.. fangyong, boyi and haoli came at 4plus. when we play till 5 plus, colin came, with guess who? weiwei, andrew, colin and some other pj guys. then surprisingly stephanie also got come. haha. then its like both groups playing were noobs la... ok la. whatever. then we played till 7.. freaking tired. then after that we played winning eleven 9, until my PS2 got jinxed AGAIN! it HANGed.. and it say "unable to read disc" bloody hell.. so screwed up. damn. just got a new one and it went HANG-ing again. the guys left at 8.30 like that. then i went to play tennis AGAIN, with david, agnes and my sis.. played till 10.. become such a tennis enthusiast suddenly. =D

freaking bored now.. listening to kelly clarkson's songs and other american idol's songs.. i m sucha sucker for kelly clarkson's songs.. i admit that. =) installed limewire today. david and agnes trying to convince me that indo-pop is nice. okay la.. i heard a couple of songs la.. but doesnt suit my taste. sorry peeps.. i still like english songs best.. even more than chinese songs. =D

so tired..... thank god tomorrow no golf.. or i m just gonna die. =D gonna sleep soon. good night people.

19th feb 2006

2006-02-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

phew.. just done reading up hormones. tomorrow marks the start of the common test week. =( english and chinese compo paper tomorrow.. didnt prepare much cuz i see no point in mugging for those 2 subjects. its either u can, or cannot.. simple as that. hahaha.

woke up at 7 today cuz i m supposed to go church earlier today. music ic for the week. needa play guitar. =/ haha. after church i skipped choir and went home straight.. for what? TO NAP! i need my sleep. i've been skipping choir all month long.. i think since the start of the year i only went for twice? hahaha.. jeco ask me if i wanna go out and eat, cuz its his mum's birthday. everyone's gonna have a lunch gathering at dont-know-where.. i said "i wanna go home sleep.." my reply turned him off. he was like "free food la.. come on.. u freakin' no life can? every week i hear the same reply from you" hahahahaha. i have no life indeed. but what to do? sleepy what.. to go home and sleep after church and after school has become a condition reflex action for me..

went to watch agnes and david play fatal frame before i went to sleep. i played that game alone once. and its at night. freaked out man.. damn it.. its just as scary even though u play during day time.. napped till 3 and i woke up to mug history.. completed the whole chapter in 3 hours plus. didnt really memorise word by word. if i were to do a koh fang yong and memorise them all, i this whole week no need to sleep already. hahaha.

went to take a break and played tennis downstairs with dad, agnes, david and sis. haoli, fangyong and kaimun's gonna come on fri after school to play. =D hehehe..

i think friendster's horoscope thing got fortune telling ability man. they say memories of passionate relationship will inspire you to change direction. was talking to yuxuan just now and she say she wanna have a taste of a relationship.
felt the same thing today.

i was in the service and the song "come what may" suddenly ring in my head for no specific reason.. then i thought of agnes and david. think they are the model couple for me man. seriously.. they've been together for like almost 3years but they look as though they've been together for 10. that emotional closeness is really amazing. neither have i seen them making out or getting hanky panky, nor having the desire to make out.. their relationship is solely being built on an emotional and spiritual foundation. seems quite different to what the current generation of relationship that i see. nowadays, especially in teenage or youngster's cases, relationship arent built on a strong emotional foundation, but instead on physical foundation.. to them, getting intimate is the only way to show their affection.. i dont deny my past relationship was build on a physical foundation. but... ok, back to the main point.. i really wanna see the day when i really find sucha person.. someone who can make me feel comfortable, even in the quietest moment..

its 12.54. needa get going. gonna visit njo's blog before i off my comp.. blog again if i have the time next wk. till then, so long people..

2006-02-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

man u lost 1-0.. man. sucha shame.. but pool deserved that scoreline.. they were the better side overall. zhili's supposed to come my house to watch the game. but he suddenly say he cant make it cuz he has to go for dinner.. its been awhile since we last watched a match together, especially with all the misunderstandings and the tensions that happened last time round.. but its already over. so... whatever~

went to jurong east library to mug today with fangyong, haoli and boyi... met waihou and liqian there. haha. today's productivity is not as good. only done with social studies. boyi and me kept discussing about our "business" plan we intended to carry out.. had lots of ideas. but sadly, it was NOT TOO feasible. risky plan. so much for our afternoon thinking about this.. but whatever it is, i think we rock to be able to come up with such ideas.. never mind, we shall think of other feasible ways to earn money.. haha. whatever. lets not talk about all this.. haha.

my roomie's coming back tonight! rock on mate.. he's been away for a month. anyway, gonna go grab some food. havent had my dinner yet..

2006-02-18T01:32:00.000+08:00

feeling kinda bored right now.. didnt expect myself to actually blog. its been sucha long time since i last blogged. hahaha. yuntian bugged me to start a blog last night and here i am, blogging. man... i think i m outta my mind. hahaha.. too excited about the lobang boyi gave me perhaps? its 1.35 now.. freaking tired. didnt go sch today.. ponned. stayed home to mug and then went to church for practice.. bevelry came to my place at 10 just now- to return me my tie.. haha.. she's gung-ho. came all the way to my condo. haha. okay la.. by right supposed to meet her, but she didnt contact me. but when she did, i was in church.. -_-" gonna go j.e library tomorrow to mug. meeting haoli, boyi and fangyong at 10. update tomorrow. doubt anyone'll be reading this, but whatever it is, goodnight people..